Untitled.

So many people have been getting engaged and married over the holidays. In a sense, I am jealous. Michael and I decided only a few days after he left for Basic Training that we could not live without each other and that we wanted to get married, since then my parents caught on and I began discussing it with them. THEY want us to wait until after I've finished school and Michael has finished his first 4 years or finished his term if he does not re-enlist after this term is up. I totally think that is what we should be doing, because we're only 18, but we've been together coming up on 2 1/2 years on February 3rd and he's been in the army and away from me for months and weeks at a time for a little over half of a year now. Being an Army Girlfriend has made me rather independent which is good, I needed that change. I felt so complete over Christmas Break being able to see him everyday for 3 weeks. It all felt right, perfect and amazing. Without him here, I just do not feel myself. Michael is more than the man I Love, he is also my BEST FRIEND. I tell him everything and we have been through so much together. I feel that we've made it through the stress of training, a deployment is coming up this summer and if we make it through that, we can make it through anything and everything, we're 90 % there. We could conquer the world.

Seeing all these people getting engaged and married has really got me thinking. By all these people, I mean I've heard about at least 12 if not more people who got engaged during Christmas Break.

Right now, all I want in life is to call him my husband and I hate the feeling of not being able to do something I feel is right in my heart because my parents think we're too young and that I need to finish school. My Education is extremely important to me, but I just feel so incomplete without him. I know he'll be deployed soon and probably for a year to 18 months, but what about now? He's still here! Why can't we make the best of it? By the time we can get married, we will have been together about 6 years and who knows how long we will have been together by the time we actually get to finally get married..could be 7 or close to 8 years. I just don't feel like waiting that long, I am already waiting on other things.

Call me crazy, but I just feel ready and feel like it's time. It's almost to the point where I don't care what others think, this is my or OUR life and I just want what will make us both happy. I don't want to sit here in college looking forward to graduation day just so I can finally marry him...I know I put myself in this position, but I'm Sorry, you can't fight feelings nor can you change Love. It captured our hearts. It found us.